transcending stupidity

i wish people would stop saying

"but you're smart, you'll get good marks even if you don't study."

just stop.

stop assuming that i'm going to ace every test; stop expecting me to do it.

it's like i've got my own private group of stress givers. and yes, people saying that stresses me out more than actual studying - which should not be the case. i can generate enough stress on my own, thank you very much.

i am a very lazy person. it's not a hidden truth. i do not like studying - in fact, i really hate it. i like learning, but studying is detestable. it doesn't help that the last time i "studied" was at tuition back in m'sia. so i really have no idea how to do it properly.

i do okay in my tests. most of them, anyway. and it's really by God's grace because there is no way it can be anything else. it's not because i'm smart; i'm not genius, far from it.
you want smart? look at sharon fan, who puts in the work and gets good results. look at jessica ling, who uses her brains and makes the effort to achieve the scores she does. look at tze-chiang; the smartass gets full marks in almost every test. look at people like emily, nigara, mike; all naturally smart, all work hard to do the best they can and it pays off.

and look at the Leongs. i don't even feel a need to elaborate on this point.

i am not a smart person. what stands between me and that perfect score, is a laziness that transcends all stupidity. it's that simple.

the difference between me and all those people i mentioned, is that they'd all be studying their physics notes now, instead of wasting their time blogging.

so stop saying "you don't need to study. you'll pass anyway."

because somehow, it's worse when you know you can do it, but you just don't.