stuck

oh these times are hard
yeah they're making us crazy
don't give up on me baby

if my heart was a house, owl city

You're the sky that I fell through, and
I remember the view whenever I'm holding you
The sun hung from a string
Looking down on the world as it warmed over everything

Chills run down my spine
As our fingers entwine
And your sides harmonize with mine
Unmistakably, I can still feel your heart beat fast when you dance with me

We got older and I should have known
[do you feel alive?]
That I'd feel colder when I walk alone
[oh but you'll survive]
So I may as well ditch my dismay
[bombs awayyy]
[bombs awayyy]

Circle me and the needle moves gracefully
Back and forth
If my heart was a compass, you'd be North
Risk it all cause I'll catch you if you fall
Wherever you go
If my heart was a house, you'd be home

It makes me smile because you said it best
I would clearly feel blessed if the sun rose up from the west
Flower bomb perfume
All my clothes smell like you cause your favorite shade is navy blue

I walk slowly when I'm on my own
[do you feel alive?]
Yeah but frankly I still feel alone
[oh, but you'll survive]
So I may as well ditch my dismay
[bombs awayyy]
[bombs awayyy]

Circle me and the needle moves gracefully
Back and forth
If my heart was a compass, you'd be North
Risk it all cause I'll catch you if you fall
Wherever you go
If my heart was a house, you'd be home

If my heart was a house, you'd be home

i keep hearing my phone ringing from the kitchen but it's sitting right next to me and not ringing. i think i'm going crazy.

i have been listening to a few instrumentals on repeat for the last couple of days.
it's nice sometimes to just listen to music, without words to distract you.

a few favourites:

Wing Stock, by Ashley MacIsaac.
apparently he's a bit of a weirdo in person, but a brilliant fiddler.

To Zanarkand from FFX by Nobuo Uematsu (who composes most of the SquareEnix game soundtracks). i know it's a little overplayed, but i still like it a lot.

Utada Hikaru's First Love (FFVII Advent Children) is also quite nice, but the build-up is a bit boring. once it gets to the - what's the equivalent of the chorus in an instrumental? - the middle part, i really like it.

but i can't get past River Flows In You by this korean dude called Yiruma (who IS this?).
it stays in my head all day long... but it's so pretty. one of the prettiest piano melodies i've heard in a while. i love it.


T-15 hours to the chemistry exam.
poo.



[edit] 9.32 pm
anonymous has very kindly corrected my initial assumption that Yiruma is japanese.
he is, in fact, korean.
they're everywhere.

a life you don't live is still lost

please answer YES or NO.

in the last 12 months, have you:
1) had male to male sex?
2) had syphilis, herpes, or any other form of STD?
3) been pregnant, or given birth?
4) breastfed a child?

these are the kinds of questions they ask you when you decide to give blood.

today, i had just over 400mLs of blood sucked out of my arm. you're supposed to give 470mLs, but if you're a little small, or if your blood's a little uncooperative, you give less. as it was, i spent 15 minutes in the chair [almost twice the normal time] and i only managed to pump out 405 mLs.

but...... i left with a full stomach, a very cute soft toy, and a gaping hole in my arm.

it feels nice knowing that i might be able to save three lives though.

ok, maybe two and a half.

save three lives. give blood.


blogger is being really difficult tonight. none of my pictures will upload.
but here... the new Goo Goo Dolls single for the Transformers movie.

Before It's Too Late Goo Goo Dolls

I wonder through fiction to look for the truth
Buried beneath all the lies
and I stood at a distance
To feel who you are
Hiding myself in your eyes

and hold on before it's too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

and the risk that might break you
Is the one that would save
A life you dont live is still lost
So stand on the edge with me
Hold back your fear and see
Nothing is real til it's gone

Hold on before its too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

So live like you mean it
Love til you feel it
It's all that we need in our lives
So stand on the edge with me
Hold back your fear and see
Nothing is real til it's gone

Hold on before its too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

Hold on before its too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

It's all that we need in our lives
It's all that I need in my life

this guy sings such nice lyrics.

almost made me cry

Dear Mr. President
Pink

Dear Mr. President,
Come take a walk with me.
Let's pretend we're just two people and
You're not better than me.
I'd like to ask you some questions if we can speak honestly.

What do you feel when you see all the homeless on the street?
Who do you pray for at night before you go to sleep?
What do you feel when you look in the mirror?
Are you proud?

How do you sleep while the rest of us cry?
How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye?
How do you walk with your head held high?
Can you even look me in the eye
And tell me why?

Dear Mr. President,
Were you a lonely boy?
Are you a lonely boy?
Are you a lonely boy?
How can you say
No child is left behind?
We're not dumb and we're not blind.
They're all sitting in your cells
While you pave the road to hell.

What kind of father would take his own daughter's rights away?
And what kind of father might hate his own daughter if she were gay?
I can only imagine what the first lady has to say
You've come a long way from whiskey and cocaine.

How do you sleep while the rest of us cry?
How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye?
How do you walk with your head held high?
Can you even look me in the eye?

Let me tell you 'bout hard work
Minimum wage with a baby on the way
Let me tell you 'bout hard work
Rebuilding your house after the bombs took them away
Let me tell you 'bout hard work
Building a bed out of a cardboard box
Let me tell you 'bout hard work
Hard work
Hard work
You don't know nothing 'bout hard work
Hard work
Hard work
Oh

How do you sleep at night?
How do you walk with your head held high?
Dear Mr. President,
You'd never take a walk with me.
Would you?

Dear Mr. President
Pink

she twitched and he had to stare

a.HZ: you... haven't grown much taller in the last three years hoh.
me: no -_- i haven't.
a.HZ: yeah, we were expecting you to shoot up... but...
me: TT

i've worked out that i'm probably more likely to grow in the next three seconds than i am to start studying. it's that bad.


am currently listening to Jon McLaughlin and i have to say, he's not bad. some of his stuff is a bit too slow for me, but there are a couple of songs i really like.

After all we’re only human,
always fighting what we’re feeling,
hurt instead of healing,
after all we’re only human,
is there any other reason why we stay instead of leavin’
Human, Jon McLaughlin

She would change everything for happy ever after.
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster,
But she just needs someone to take her home
Beautiful Disaster, Jon McLaughlin

i had a really, really cool dream two nights ago. the kind that makes me go "damn, i need to write it down and then maybe one day it'll be made into a movie". it even had it's own cast of celebrities already.

no joke. i dreamed a blockbuster.

basically, there was an angel [kim jeong hoon] who came to earth to... i'm a little fuzzy on this, but i think he was here to destroy us one at a time because we're such horrible people. so he's got this hate-mission against all humans, but he's got these two housemates [sandra bullock and some-dude-i-forgot-his-name-once-i-woke-up] who show him that people aren't all bad.

ho ho ho! yes, i am aware that this is the lamest dream ever. and no, i do not know why it was specifically those people in my dream. all i know is that at one point, sandra bullock gets herself hurt and she's bandaged up and lying on my kitchen counter, and kjh is standing by my pantry and this narrator voice says "he hated them. but at the same time, he couldn't help looking at her every time she twitched."

bahah- what the hell?

every time she twitched? i think that was my dream trying to be romantic there. it obviously doesn't know how.

and yes, it was cool while i was sleeping - really like watching a movie - but it kinda lost it's magic once i woke up. damn.

i've written it here tho, so that 30 years from now i can look back and laugh myself silly. it's just so...... random. but seriously. it was the coolest dream for the first five seconds after i woke up.

i'll laugh if a movie is ever made about something like this.

tagline: she twitched, and he had to stare.

collide

awesome song. not too hard to play either. and the lyrics are so niceeee..

COLLIDE Howie Day

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find you and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find you and I collide

Don't stop here
I lost my place
I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find you and I collide

You finally find you and I collide
You finally find you and I collide

cry on my shoulder

'Cry on my shoulder' Overflow

you say you're falling apart, reached the end of the line
just looking for your place in an ordinary life
no one calls you friend, no one even knows your name
you just want to feel loved instead of all the pain
You no longer have to say, no one's listening anyway

come here and cry on my shoulder, i'll hold you til it's over
i'll rescue you tonight
let my arms be your shelter, your hiding place forever
i'll love you more than life

you're wearing a frown, giving up on hope
my heart is reaching out more than you will ever know
is your burden too much, is it more than you can bear
i'll help carry the load if you're willing to share

you've had some hard times, had thorns placed in your side
i know about what you've been going through
tears of pain are falling down, it hurts so bad you're crying out
your problems won't last forever
let me put you back together